Saturday, December 17, 2011

My Guiding Light

I am overwhelmed by the support, kindness and love shown to me by the blogging community.

It is inspiring to me to know that people who have never even met me have reached out to offer me comfort and encouragement during one of the most difficult times of my life.

Lately, I have stopped listening to the local evening news because it seems to be mostly filled with accounts of murder, rape, political hi jinx, college football scandals and depressing reports of dire economic conditions.

Recently, though, I  heard about a story involving good Samaritans who have been paying off the balances of lay-a-way purchases at K-Mart stores for families who are struggling financially.

Reading that heartwarming story, along with the beautiful comments I have received, has given me a little lift.

I have been trying to find meaning in the loss of my son.  I don't know if I believe the cliche "Everything happens for a reason."

But, perhaps, for me it is that a light has been shone on the basic goodness and giving spirits of people who are sometimes total strangers.    A light that someday may guide me to do a kindness for the next person who may be hurting or in need.

Of course, my brightest light has been right next to me all along who always finds the good in everyone.


  1. You are in my  thoughts. Wishing you the gentle touch of beautiful Christmas spirit to comfort that place in your heart.

  2. I would seek meaning also, but I would be the one to decide which cliche to believe.  If I thought I had to supply a reason for that, over which I had no control, in order to get some internal peace, I wouldn't achieve either.  And no, not eating his vegetables does not qualify as a reason, because he has to have decided that, not you.  All you could have done is guide.
    I think Angelia said it best: Allow the gentle touch of Christmas to ease your greatest pain, in the best possible way.

  3. Thank you for your thought provoking comment.
    I understand what you are saying about needing an explanation for the unexplainable in order to achieve inner peace.  That is certainly not logical.   But I also understand for now my responses are based purely on my emotional needs, which at the moment are kind of overwhelming.   

  4. I am so sorry for your loss.  We lost our 33 year old daughter September 2010 with her third bout of breast cancer.  I am still having moments of difficulty.  I am a faithful christian and my husband and I pastor a church.  I question God, I get mad at times.  But no matter what even through my madness, my questions, God loves me and he is faithful.  We miss her so much and Holidays are the wrost.  She left a 5 year old son who lives in Florida with his dad, which is not a good situation but we have no control.  Sorry not trying to depress you just know I feel your pain and I understand.  You are in my prayers.

  5. Thank you for your comment.  I am sorry for your pain.  

    Although I know there are many people who have experienced the loss of a son or daughter, I have not yet personally spoken to anyone who has.  It is somewhat comforting to me to be able communicate with someone who understands.   I know that time will never heal the feeling of sadness I have of missing my son.   I will always be part of my grandson's life, though, which I am sure will help will help ease the pain.