Four Letter Words

 

I believe I'm a little unique.  I never use curse words.  They just are not part of my vocabulary.  

 

I'm not just talking about the ones that prime-time network television won't allow.  

 

No, no, I mean words like hell and damn, or bathroom humor words. Oh my, it took a lot to even write those.   

 

Perhaps it has something to do with me being the oldest of six.  Along with being my parent's experiment, like eldest kids are, I was probably also the most well behaved.   I did what I was told and tried not do what I shouldn't.  

 

Or maybe it was my Catholic upbringing.  You know having to confess such things, starting at age 7. 

 

At this point if anyone close to me heard any of those words come out of my mouth, they would probably be shocked and stare at me wordlessly. 

 

Now don't get me wrong, I'm okay with others using colorful language.  In fact, I appreciate the impact the most famous "F" word can have. 

I do understand it.  There are moments when those words seem to say exactly what nothing else quite can. 

 

The past few years have been tough for me. I probably have caregiver’s PTSD along with some pent-up emotions that go along with it. 

 

My sister recently advised me to try letting go a little. She said it's very @#$%ing freeing!

 

Perhaps I will go to the ocean one day and try it out. 