Wednesday, September 13, 2017

At “The End” My Heart Will Be Whole

I think I am able to express myself more easily in the written word than I can orally.  When I am writing there are no uh’s or um’s.  Oh, don’t get me wrong there are plenty of pauses when I write.  But the reader doesn’t know how much time I may have spent staring out the window in between sentences.
Sometimes the speed of thought between brain and mouth can be unmanageable, especially during episodes of high emotion.  When I speak there is no auto correct, no backspace or delete key.
I remember as a kid arguing with my sister.  She would yell at me to “Take that back!”
But we quickly learn, there is no “taking back” of the spoken word.
When I write I can cryptically hide behind metaphors.  I can let those characters running around in my head laugh and cry, wander and wonder, be lonely and afraid.

I’ve always liked to tell stories to little kids.  I would tell tales to my little sisters and brothers or younger cousins,  then my own children and now my grandkids.  
Until recently, until I started my blog, actually, I had not thought about writing my stories.    
Now, I have a number of stories with great beginnings, but can’t seem to make them whole.  
I suppose it’s a combination of  a lack of discipline, perseverance, and mostly self confidence. 

I have no idea of being a famous writer or even getting published.   But at this point in my life, wouldn’t it be the grandest of finales to not only have a beginning, but a middle and a “The end". 

I can escape my reality with a story. 
In my story my spirit would soar.
I would breathlessly run up to the mountain top so that I could see the world.  I would throw my anger over the edge.
My tale would be filled with lavender and daffodil and aqua blue. 
At the end of my story my heart would be whole.


  1. Well said! That is how I want my story to end too!

  2. Write the ending first.

    Hear me out. You've got beginnings. But where does that beginning go? Once you know the ending, you have something to work toward. It might take longer than you plan to get there, but you have an ultimate destination in mind.

    Of course, I'm not ending things much right now, either...

    1. Thank you Liz. I think that is a brilliant idea. I will try that!

  3. I like Liz' idea too! I think I do better writing than speaking myself too :)


    1. You write so well! Yes, Liz’ idea is a great one!

  4. I'm the same way.As an introvert I have a hard time expressing myself-I'd mush rather just write...

    1. I understand what you mean. I stutter or stumble over my words a lot when I speak. I think it stems from nervousness.