Thursday, February 7, 2019

It’s Here I Come to Feel

Once, when I was participating in a therapy group, the moderator suggested an idea for our consideration.

“Change a thought, change a feeling” she wrote on the whiteboard.
It sort of made sense to me at the time.  At the time I would have grabbed onto any lifeline thrown my way.

On Monday of this week the doctor called with the kind of news that sucked the air from our bodies.

No amount of thought alteration could have changed that feeling.

We have a long road ahead.   More tests, more waiting for results.  Perhaps months of treatments.

Today I am wobbling between thoughts of despair and feelings of hope.

Once, when I thought that my feelings would overwhelm me and command me to despondency, someone suggested I write.

During the last seven years, this space has been my safe place.   It’s here I come to explore and express all of my feels and thoughtfully send them on their way.

It’s the lifeline that makes most sense to me.

6 comments:

  1. Yikes, I'm so sorry. I hope that the way ahead is easier than you imagine.

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  2. So sorry to hear this! I hope you do use your blog as your lifeline and if you need a "safe" place to write things and get things off your chest in a not public forum, do feel free to email me (lv2trnscrb@aol.com). I will pray for you.

    betty

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    1. Thank you Betty. I do appreciate your kind offer.

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  3. Hari OM
    Lynda, blogging is perfect as a 'safe place', despite its being so naked! I too use my blogging as 'therapy'; the people who linger and read you are caring about you - even if they don't always comment out loud. Sending healing thoughts and vibes of Love and Light in support of what seems is likely to be a darkened road for you. YAM xx

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    1. Thank you! I appreciate what you said. Receiving support is one of the most important benefits of writing on my blog.

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